tizzychick

I don't understand this

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 10:38:31 GMT

I've said this before, but how come everytime I come back here and read other peoples' LJs do I get even more depressed??? I was sooo good at the beginning of this semester, and then over the last few weeks I've been really down, but I don't think it has anything to do with that... maybe I should do what Liz did and delete everyone who doesn't even care that I'm attempting to keep in contact. Thank you Liz, you definitely brought up my mood tonight :)

woah

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 07:04:47 GMT

Why?

I have news.

But I'll be back after the 18th I have 2 final projects due tomorrow and 2 exams on Thursday and 2 exams on Monday so I shouldn't be here kbye.

Another thing stolen from Liza

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 22:58:28 GMT

If you read this, even if i don't speak to you often, you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 08:46:59 GMT

I wish I had real friends.

More junk...

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 00:39:13 GMT

Your American Idol Duet by madonnawhore
Name:
Age:
Your duet partner:	Kelly Clarkson
Name your single:
The single debuts at:	#2 - You & your duet partner make another single.
Random fame reaction...	Mandy Moore claims she wants to work with you.

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.

which happy bunny are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Aww, I knew it'd make fun of me

M	Mesmerizing
A	Awesome
R	Rounded
I	Innocent
S	Sloppy
S	Strange
A	Arty

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

eheheh

Editing later

Lalala

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 00:15:42 GMT

tizzychick's LJ stalker is kittenhead66!

kittenhead66 is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also not very liked around here!

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

Umm yeah, last time I did the stalker thing, I got Melissa, but now I have LIZA!!!! Aaah! I'm going to try this again....

tizzychick's LJ stalker is furrydepends!

furrydepends is stalking you because a little birdie told them you talked behind their back. They are also prank calling you regularly!

LJ Stalker Finder
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Oh look, now I have Alisey!! I'm suspicious of this LJ stalker thingy!!!

Yes, I also got Sabrina and Hannah as my stalkers too... yes I tried it again...

umm okay this isn't the last of me

Uhh yeah, it's been a while...

Sat, 22 May 2004 04:26:29 GMT

Well yes, so I promised people that I'd update this, but since my "forum break" in January or whatever, I haven't really been doing too well... instead of backdating and stuff, I'll just have to fill you in on what's new as I go along... right now, I can't think of what's different right now from January 24 or whatever my last entry was.... I know there's a lot, I'm just too lazy. So yeah, I'll just enter this for now, because I've been working on this forever and it just won't get done if i leave it for longer... so, uhh, leave me a message if you still read this :)

Just an update on my LJ!

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 04:22:04 GMT

Yep, for everyone who's not an LJ member and has tried to see my LJ, I've decided to make some of my entries public, as long as they don't have any names in them. If you can read an entry that has a name in it, let me know, kay? 'cuz i'll probably make some mistakes, hahaha!!! But yeah, I'll go put this in my OTF at HandH so yeah......

AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 03:58:55 GMT

SAKDFJWERJ DSKLJFHSKLJRES DLKFJSLK;JWLKERJ;LKWEJRJ;LKJA!!!!!!!!!!

I have never sworn so much in one day since I stopped swearing the first time..... GAAHHHHHHHHHHHH shoot me now!!!!

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Alright, I have to calm down. Basically what I'm upset about is that I screwed up in math, I screwed up in biology, I even screwed up in psychology. PSYCHOLOGY!!! HOW THE HELL CAN YOU DO THAT????? Well f*ck that! I give up! If I can't even get a friggin' A in psychology, how can I expect one in biology and math???? kwjehrkw!!!!! I can't handle it! There's one more semester of high school, ONE and I still want to quit! WTF I used to be the best at school out of all of my friends...... especially math....... now I can barely scrape by with what I've got? And all of them just rubbing it my face with their 99 percents and all that crap. Well ya know what? I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!! So what if that was the only thing I could do better than them? Oh well, now I'm just gonna totally fuck up the next semester because the competition with them was all that was keeping me going. But obviously it's impossible to beat them, so what's the point in even trying??? I'm already accepted to university, I don't have to worry about that, and I'm sure I can scrape up at least one little scholarship with my last year's grades, but nope, there's no point in going for the big ones anymore because all my friends will take those! alkwerhwkjerh Oh wow. I haven't said "I hate my life" since I got through my depression. That's scaring me right now. Really, really scaring me. I need to go to church on Sunday. And full circle. I don't care about studying for exams anymore. There's no hope anyway. Yes, that's what I'll do. I'll waste tonight with family, tomorrow at work and Sunday at church and full circle. Then I can just go into the provincials and whatever I know I'll get, whatever I don't, who cares?

ETA: Hmmm...... okay, I'm feeling better now. and kinda a little bit silly for the way I acted....... my marks aren't even that bad, and I'm sure a lot of people would feel like slapping me when they hear what I'm crying about. Yup, in math I have exactly 86%, biology 88% and psychology 86%. The lowest A's you can get. Just seeing those numbers actually upsets me right now. But I'm sure I'll do fine on the exams, I always do. I'm going to go ditch my family and study now, I'm printing off practice provincials as I write this.

Nocturnally-ness!!!

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 17:21:42 GMT

Umm, so yeah, I'm going to write about the 17th here right now, since for me it still feels like it is...... I'll write about today sometime later.

I went to work, came home, had a shower and fell asleep for 6 and a half hours. Yepp, that was my day. Long, eh? But umm, yeah, at work, I didn't even have to do any bad jobs! Well, jobs I hate doing anyway, like till, or what's it called? display case? no.... umm...... crap...... see, this is what happens when you work once in 6 weeks....... but uhh yeah, that, or sweeping..... oh, nevermind, I had to sweep. So that sucked. I hate sweeping. And there was no point in me saying all that, but as anyone who has talked to or received an e-mail from me in the last little while could tell ya, I'm not exactly in a "sane" mood right now if ya know what I mean (yup, i had to add that in there, just for Susie if she ever comes and reads this!) But umm yeah, so I bought two large subs today, because I feel bad making my mom get us food ready, what with her hip and all..... so yeah, I got a black angus steak and a sierra smoked turkey, and holy wowzers was the black angus GOOD!!!!!! oh wow, it even had onions and mushrooms in it (which I can't stand) and I just absolutely loved it! wheeee!!! i don't even like our steak 'cuz when I slice it I see all the fat..... but yummmm I'm sooooo buying another one soon!!!

Yeah, so enough of me rambling on that..... after work I came home, had a shower, and fell asleep from 5-11:30. Great. I just stayed up all night doing homework. I actually got stuff done. Good for me. Guess who's going to be dead for her work meeting tonight! (oh yeah, Quiznos got robbed a few weeks ago, btw, not that you'd care, that's just what the meeting's for) but oh well, I get pizza, so it's all good! wheee! I'm totally just gahhed right now. I really hope I'm not scaring anyone too badly, I don't wanna lose any of my friends 'cuz I'm nuts! Maybe I better quickly finish this, like, right now.... I'll be back eventually, I still have to update from the 12th to yesterday/the day before yesterday....... 'cuz yeah, when I have journals I like to keep them all organized and neat and with an entry for everyday.... :"> I like my organization, leave me alone! Grrr I should sleep. Bye bye!!!!

My first entry!!!

Thu, 08 Jan 2004 05:57:52 GMT

Alright, so this is my first live journal entry, hehehe!!! Umm, yeah, I don't really know what I'm doing, so if these get long and boring, I'm sorry! I'm just used to details, lol! Yeah, I was going to write in this yesterday, but for some reason didn't end up doing this, so yeah......

Today there was another snow day! Two days of no school in a row after only being there once after Christmas break? Well, yeah, I still totally needed that. So uh, yup, I got up at 8 and just hung out around the house for a bit, then came on the computer and "didn't post" at the forums...... I got Liza to do that for me..... or I edited the posts and added what I wanted to say..... took a lot longer than it would have if I had just posted in the first place...... I'm crazy, hehe! So yeah, I spent even longer today on the forums that I'm supposed to be taking a break from until February, just reading......

But I also got stuff done today too! Like I did a lot of my french homework, which I don't even have to start until February, and then I got a lot of extra math and biology and psychology done...... yup, very productive!!!

I went to go visit my mom in the hospital this afternoon.... she just had an operation yesterday, and she was obviously in a lot of pain, but she didn't complain at all, I was so proud of her! (hehe, that sounds funny....) I had called my dance, piano and band teachers to tell them I couldn't go out tonight because of the snow and my mom, so I just spent the entire night lazing around the house again, blahblahblah..... And now I'm watching the OC for the second time this week, heehee!!!

I'm really out of it right now, I don't know if any of that made sense. I hope I can edit this, but if not, oh well! Be back soon!!!

ETA: For everyone I've sent here, there are only entries without my friends' names that are publicly viewable..... so yeah, if you want to read about everything else, you can add me as a friend and tell me who you are so I can add you! Love ya!